Situations in our lives affect our faith.  That’s a fact.  I have a friend that is a perfect example of this.  His/her faith has been altered greatly because of this situation, and that’s not good.  I think it’s even caused him/her to doubt.  I understand completely though, and I’m not downing this person, I’m just using it as an example.  I’ve had the same thing happen to me before.  I pray for things to happen how they should, and I sit back and see things that just aren’t right going on.  I know for a fact that some things just aren’t perfect.  Now my problem is, that I look at the situation, on how it happened, and I get upset because it didn’t play out how I wanted it to.  I would like to believe there is a reason for every single thing that happens, like Karlee said on my last post, the thought that every single thing is part of a “master plan,” but isn’t that just a hard concept to swallow?  We get upset when things don’t play out how we want, and we find it necessary to blame someone.

I just wish I knew all the answers sometimes.  I know that isn’t possible, and if we knew everything, we would be God, but it would still be nice to know.  If you believe in God, or whatever deity it may be, if you believe there was an entity that created the universe, and you had only one question to ask Him, what would it be?  Just one though, not a series of questions, just a single inquiry.  Interesting thought isn’t it?  Although I’d have to think about it more if confronted with this situation, my question would be somewhere along the lines of, “Why do bad things happen to good people?”  Yeah, I think that would most definitely be it.  Do you ever wonder whether or not God travels through time like we do, or does he see the big picture, from beginning to end?  Now that’s a mind-bending concept.  Think about it.  So what if time has no meaning to God, and He sees the beginning, and the end, all together.  If this is the case, do we control our own life?  It’s just like the concept of “The Matrix” and I’ve touched on this in the past, but if time and events are set in stone in God’s eyes, haven’t we already chosen a path?  So if we have, then are we in control?  You can sit here and argue the points of fate, destiny, and God’s will all day, but that question will never be answered.  There are great points on both sides there. 

I like the idea of God’s will.  In fact I love it.  You know I was having some major issues the other night about this very situation.  I didn’t really share my thoughts with anyone though.  I kept to myself, and just thought about it.  Well the next morning I woke up and I got an email from my mother, and she told me that she was praying that morning and she felt that God told her something pertaining to a situation that I was going through.  The email was long, but here’s an excerpt, “I was praying this morning, and really felt like God wanted me to tell you something.  He leaves our lives alone as long as we want Him to and will only intervene when asked” Coincidence?  No way.  I’ll tell you what though, I think that people, and heck I’ll be the first to admit that I’m guilty of this, don’t want to pray because it conflicts with their actions.  Yes that’s it.  It conflicts with their fun nature, with the “feel good” notions.  I will admit I am struggling with that even now.  Doing what is right opposed to what we want to do, or better yet, what feels good.  Ever been in a situation that you know wasn’t right, but you just thought to yourself, well I’ll do better, or it won’t hurt only this one time.  I find myself there all the time.  All we can do though is strive to be better.  I think that’s what really counts.