Sometimes I love life. Sometimes I hate it. Recently it has been more the latter though. I don’t have the energy nor drive to type out why that is, but unfortunately it’s the truth. I guess we can’t always depend on life to be perfect though, can we? 2005 was definitely the hardest year of my life. I struggled with so much this year. Some of which was shared with others, and some that was only personal issues. Why is that? It seems like there are just some years of our life that seem tough, but some that go great. It’s funny. It is an odd thing to me though, that I am struggling with one of the same things this holiday season that I was last year at the exact same time. Most of my close friends that probably read this know exactly what I’m talking about, and if you don’t, well that comes back down to being to tired and strained to talk about it. It’s funny, I seem to be the one always advising people that everything will be ok, and everything will work out just like they need it to in their life, but I just find it so hard sometimes to listen to my own advice. It doesn’t really seem like most of my friends care to listen though. Most of them are so caught up in their own issues. By all means I’m not saying that their issues aren’t important, it’s just that sometimes I just feel like it’s hard to find someone that actually listens. Please spare me the sympathy though, because that isn’t the purpose of this message, and for God’s sake, NO this isn’t directed at one person. It’s probably just me. I’m sure it’s just my own issues that I have to work out; even if I had assistance from people, it wouldn’t help. I just need time, that’s all. Time to get over my issues. I’m so ready for the new year. But I hate people that are all about this “New Years Resolution” stuff. That just makes me mad. I’ll give you an example; I saw one of the most ridiculous things ever tonight on someone’s blog. They had made a statement, and it went like this: 2006 has to be a good year because 2 + 6 = 8 and the number 8 stands for fertility and long life, or some crap like that. Give me a break people. That is probably the dumbest thing I’ve heard in a long time. Things like that just piss me off, lol. Anyway, enough ranting. Time to go mope some more.