Wow my life feels so overwhelming right now. I don’t know why. I don’t know if it’s stress, or something else. I, probably for the first time ever, am having trouble controlling my emotions. I guess it’s the time of year. About a year ago this time of the month, something life altering happened to me, then a month later, something else, so I guess it’s just memories from that. I can’t listen to a song from then without getting upset, or feeling sad, or happy, or mad. It’s such a weird feeling. Religion has been on my mind a lot lately. Do I believe this, do I believe that. What if something doesn’t work how I want it to, will I be mad? Well you know that’s a good question, because I have never been in that position. Why is it that we are all so quick to give up on religion, well you know what, let’s throw that word out the window. Let’s use the word spirituality. It’s much more fitting. Religion is too big of a word. Why are we so quick to give up on it? Why do we do what we do? We give up on it, not because we don’t have faith, but because things didn’t work out as we planned. I thought about that, and the story of Job from Bible.

Job 2:3
Then the LORD said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil. And he still maintains his integrity, though you incited me against him to ruin him without any reason.”

Man, when I read this, or anytime I even think about it I almost cry, because I feel like that sometimes. That’s why I think bad things happen to good people. I, personally, don’t believe God is to blame for calamities, or diseases, but I know one thing, He has the ability to stop them. Think about it, if we have the ability to cure a disease or stop an illness, but we don’t, are we not affecting the outcome? God uses situations like this in our lives to strengthen us, to test us, to push our limits. He wants to know, how strong are you, Kelsey? How willing are you, Kelsey? What sacrifices are you willing to make for me, Kelsey? Being a Christian is not about giving up the things we love to do, it’s not about being a hermit, or a monk in a monastery; it’s about our willingness. It’s about how willing we are to give something up for us. Does God have to write things in the sky for us, to show us that He is real? Is it not enough to look around at the perfectly designed universe, and say, this isn’t chance, it’s God. That’s why I don’t really understand why people have to say God only deals through science. That’s a concept I’ve never really understood. Why would God use the big bang to create the universe? How is something written as clear as the book of Genesis taken so symbolic? That to me doesn’t make sense. I don’t direct this at anyone or any particular denomination for their beliefs, it’s simply my thoughts on the matter. Why must everything be explained by science? Why do humans have to know everything? I just don’t think it’s necessary. Why do we have to medal in what we aren’t supposed to understand? Sure God gives us knowledge, but I don’t think He wants us to use that knowledge to play His part. This world is growing more corrupt day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. I don’t think it will last much longer. I am not necessarily saying I will see the end of the world in my lifetime, but I have a feeling it’s coming soon. The more we advance in certain aspects, the more corrupt our society becomes. That’s just a fact. I see the day where we are pledging allegiance to the flag, one nation under man. It’s only a matter of time, folks.

And no, I haven’t turned into some religious fanatic raving about the end times, this is merely something that has been on my mind lately. I feel like I’ve kind of been warned to be on my guard lately, for some reason. I think we have an interesting ten years ahead of us, but that’s just me. I’m no prophet, and don’t claim to be, and am not claiming that as a prophetic statement, but it’s definitely something to think about. Thoughts like those don’t just pop in our heads for no reason. God uses us sometimes I think. Contrary to many of my friend’s beliefs, I believe God is very involved in our lives.

Joel 2:28
“And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your old men will dream dreams, your young men will see visions.